Dad had to Die to Save Me

Taking Manhood Back

Dad had to Die to Save Me

“In 6 years, the only thing that broke my heart is when he left me. The only man who gave the world to me, and loved me truly. I was his first princess, and he’ll always be my first love. Happy father’s day Daddy. I’m still lost, I miss you. ♥” – this was the tweet I posted last year..

My dad’s a typical Chinese father who keeps grounding me all the time.. Despite that, I was a spoiled little bratinella.. One of the fondest memory of him is when we went to Baguio to celebrate Christmas.. I was 16 and a rebellious daughter who wanted freedom, I was about to sneak out that night when I saw my dad sleeping on the sofa blocking the main door. Talk about outsmarting!

Anyway, Dad and I had this love-hate relationship. Never did I understood him especially his devotion to God, his quiet time w/ his Bible and the need to help others.. Not until now. My life used to be an open book, & most of the people who knew me then knows that I was a ran away daughter, plus they accuse me that I was the main reason why my father died.

Two days before he passed away.. He texted me “If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway. In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.”

It never occurred to me then the meaning of his message. Even if I did thank him for the Bible he gave me with a message encouraging me to read it and know Christ.

My dad’s death made way to the freedom I’ve been longing. Last year I  wrestled with God and cried out to Him.  I tried to read my dad’s message on the Bible and it hit me. I started attending church at Victory Greenhills, and God  made it all clear. My father was right all along!

“In seven years, this man who is after God’s own heart left this world to be with our Savior. He didn’t left me to be alone, but he left me in order for me to grow in Christ. Dad, you will always be my first love. And I know you are truly happy & proud of what I’ve become in Christ. I’m no longer lost daddy, God found me. I miss you.” – This will be my tweet for the coming Father’s day. 🙂

Written by Katrina Escover



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